spent new year's eve watching pitch perfect and the amazing spiderman with my mom through til the wee hours of new year's day. my mom shouted 'happy new year!' and i glanced at the clock. it was 12.05 A.M.
nothing felt different.
i finished c. s. lewis' mere christianity a few days ago and his take on what we think time to be and what God thinks time to be really got to me because time does not exist for God, he is beyond our concept of time and to him, what he sees time to be is a continuous stream of 'now's.
so... what if a year wasn't just 365 days? what if it were double that number. would we fall apart waiting and waiting for the year to 'just end already'. but what really got to me the most is that time is really really long. 'Day' and 'night' are just markers and the numbers on our watches are just figures we designate to a 'moment'. Actually... we're just going on and on and on when we're alive, right?
(wow that was unsettling)
but all that was thought on the assumption that i will be this person and i will never change. but time, then, will make sense when i feel the change from this to future-self.
my resolutions for 2012 were:
1. Grow closer to God (regular devotions, going to church regularly, studying the word)
2. Always be giving and loving
3. Read 100 books this year
4. Do not spend unnecessarily and save whenever I can
5. Always improve myself
6. Be punctual
7. Don't always find the easiest way out of a situation/task
not sure what made me think i would keep all 7 resolutions. seems quite daunting now that i think about it. but 2012 was truly a year of spiritual growth for me because things got better. and clearer.
this year i have 4 simple resolutions:
1. constantly be in a close relationship with God
2. show my immediate family and close friends how much i love them
3. be selfless to everyone and in every situation
4. be the best and strongest person i can be
(5. read 30 books this year since last year i only managed to read 20. but this is not as important)